A Definition

I love my husband. And you know why? Because if you look in the dictionary under sweet, optimistic, or (most importantly) naive, you’ll find a picture of him. Allow me to illustrate with a conversation from yesterday: Him: Did you take your morning estrace?Me: Yeah, but really? What’s the point?Him: I’m still hoping George will [...]

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ick

Still sick. Still not pregnant (so Barren? You can stop holding out that tiny bit of hope, okay?). I have yet to schedule my beta, which is supposed to be Friday. I wonder if they’ll notice if I don’t show up for it? I’m guessing they would notice. Back in 2006 when I was away [...]

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7dp5dt, aka The Day Barren Brought the Laughter Back

I’ve had a really hard time with this cycle, and Barren just “gets” it when a lot of other people just… don’t. I feel guilty about it, to be honest. I feel like I should have an easier time dealing with infertility by now. I’ve been there, done that. More importantly, I’m on the other [...]

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Gestating

Because it’s fun for me, every time my husband is trying to annoy me (even jokingly), I say, “No! You can’t do that! I’m gestating!” And I melodramatically throw myself down on the couch, clutching my abdomen protectively, to ensure the safety of our precious morula. All joking aside, this exchange belies my true feelings [...]

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Seriously, people!

Will 9:30 tomorrow never come? And why, oh why, did I not make the 6:45 appointment instead? What was I thinking?? (Oh, wait, that’s right, my husband has to be at work at 0630, so I couldn’t go in at 6:45 regardless… it’s HIS fault!) Yes, I totally get that tomorrow’s vampire draw isn’t going [...]

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The Very Definition of Insanity

Do you know the definition of insanity? Doing the same action over and over again, expecting a different result. Why, then, do I continue to POAS? Is it insanity? Or, as Jody suggests, simply ritual? Truthfully, though I don’t deny that I’m crazy, I don’t expect a different result, so I imagine there’s simply some [...]

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And for all those lingering optimists out there…

Just in case you were thinking that just *maybe* 14dpo might *just* be a little too early still and there *might* just still be a miracle waiting… let’s just assume that 15 and 16dpo is quite definitive, shall we? I’m still bringing J and Co. Snickerdoodles on Wednesday (beta day). It’s not their fault my [...]

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Reading Between the Lines

Get it? Reading between the lines? Like, if I had two lines and you had to rea… oh forget it, they always say that it’s not funny if you have to explain the joke. Onward and upward… ANYWHOZIT: The point, for those still reading (and I wouldn’t blame you if you’d stopped bothering after that [...]

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Too Late to Say it’s Too Early

I will now postulate that at 8dp6dt, aka 14dpo, it is now too late to say it’s too early to tell anything. No news. I don’t expect this to change come beta time. Still don’t know what the plan is – whether I have to take off a month before rolling in to BCPs or [...]

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No News

Absolutely nothing to report. Aren’t I interesting these days? I know, I’m a bundle of fun. 7dp6dt aka 13dpo. Whahoo. Beta Wednesday. I am not expecting good news.

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